If you cheated on your boyfriend and he said he forgives you, it sounds like he must love you. But I understand why he doesn’t trust you. He didn’t think you’d cheat on him before, so how can he be certain it won’t happen again?
Trust is the foundation of any good relationship. We need to be able to trust our partner with our money, our secrets, and lots of other things including our love, our hearts.
You can’t blame the guy for feeling burned. And while I appreciate the difficult position you now find yourself in and I know you genuinely want to prove to him you’ve changed, I’m not sure you can ever heal that kind of hurt. Poor guy, poor you.
I think you have to prepare yourself for the inevitable end of this relationship. You love him, but I doubt either of you could be happy together forever with such a big mistake behind you. That kind of fear in his heart is not likely to go away. And you’re going to get pretty sick of it if you’re still trying to convince him you can be trusted in five or ten years time.
Think about that. You’ll know you’ve changed, but he’ll probably still be frightened it might happen again. I suggest that you seriously consider learning from this experience and moving on. Never make the same mistake in future relationships.
You’ve loved this guy and you’ll love again. I have no doubt you’ll both shed a lot of tears and feel heartbroken for a while, but in the long term, I’m sure you’ll both be happier if you start fresh with new partners who you can trust and who trust you.
If you cheated on him, obviously something wasn’t right between you two. I think you’ll discover that when you find Mr. Right that you simply will never even consider cheating on him. True love is worth protecting. Once you find it, you won’t risk losing it.