If you haven't tried counseling, this would be a good time. It will take patience with yourself and the support of a good therapist to break through the conditioning you received from the abuses you endured. There's an expectation that you will be hurt again which is a normal trauma response. You can unlearn the victim response by focusing on your strengths and resilience. You also have to change your beliefs about what you deserve and expect from a healthy relationship. Give your self time to heal.