From Victim to Survivor to Thriver
Those who have been and continue to be victims of a Narcissistic Personality Disordered (NPD) ex are often left in a state of shock, confusion, depression, and intense anxiety that can cause them to freeze up in non-productive inaction that allows the NPD to at least continue to abuse the victim, and at worse cause great harm.
This ‘checklist’ is designed to be a starting point to help those who have been victimized to begin a process of recovery. Though it may seem as if recovery is impossible (many have been in the ‘frozen’ state for a very long time), and nothing will ever truly be the same again in your life, you can attain recovery and even begin to thrive again if you develop a plan to do so. Readers who are successful survivors are invited to add to the checklist in the comment section below.
1. Get a Plan
Having a plan that is not just in your head, but written down is a solid place to start. When you write down your goals, with attainment dates, it can help prioritize the things you need to do, and as each goal is attained, help you to feel a forward momentum.
2. Time Limit Your Grief
Even though you may be in shock or in a rage over what your NPD ex has done or is doing, it is important that you realize that you are grieving, too. You have lost something that you thought was good and true, and you have been betrayed by someone you thought loved you, and that is something to grieve about. But do not grieve for too long, lest the NPD begin to enjoy this as a source of NPD ‘supply’. In short, NPD’s are like vampires, and they ‘feed’ on other people’s reactions. And yes, they can know that you are reacting even though they cannot see you; it’s downright spooky.
3. Educate Yourself
In the book The Art of War by Sun Tzu (a book written centuries ago, but still used in military education today), it is indicated that when going into battle, you should know your opponent as well as possible: their habits, their movements, their thinking, their practices, and their blind spots. Though perhaps distasteful, learning as much as you can about NPD is essential in managing them. ‘Managing them’, because no one ever beats an NPD (at least in the NPD’s mind). But they can, in fact, be managed with the right information and the ability to activate resources. P.S.: Read ‘The Art of War’, it’s in the public domain and can be found in several locations online.
4. Manage Your Fear
NPD’s are experts at creating fear in their victims. They have spent a great deal of time, often years, essentially brainwashing their victim into fearing them. Only the victim can accurately assess the genuine reason or level to fear the NPD. Some NPD’s are just a bunch of hot air, while others can be clear and present threats to the life of the victim or others that the victim cares about. It is a very good preparation to have a safe place to retreat to if needed. Ideally, this place should be in a location that the NPD is totally unaware of, and those around you are sworn to secrecy about. In addition, if you fear for your life, gaining skills in self-defense, either in martial arts or weapons handling, or both, is an asset.
5. Manage Your Anger
Rage is the upshot of being a victim of an NPD. The relentless anger at your situation can be so overwhelming that it converts into a sense of helplessness (an emotion and situation that delights the NPD). Learning to channel your anger into productive momentum forward in the management of the NPD is important to recovery. Anger is an emotion that can and has fueled many positive changes in the world, and can in your life, as well. Left unchecked, your anger can destroy you, either by giving the NPD an advantage, causing a total emotional breakdown, or if your anger gets out of control and the NPD pushes you to do something illegal.
6. Address Your Exhaustion
This has been your companion for a long time. Bone weary, you are likely even exhausted of being exhausted! NPD’s often use tactics designed to keep you ‘on your toes’ 24/7 as a means of torture. The NPD may in fact, have many ‘minions’ who act as network spies (some of them oblivious to the fact that they are serving and evil person), giving the victim a clear and present experience of always being watched and in danger. Go to your ‘safe place’ (see above) and get some sleep and psychological rest.
7. Pay Close Attention to Your Finances
Most NPD’s fight tooth and nail to avoid giving one red cent to their ex and their children, as they believe that all of their problems are because of YOU, so you deserve to be punished in all ways possible, and money is one effective way to do that. Since they do not really care about their own children, child support is a joke. NPD’s often quit jobs and lie their way into disability, for example, to not pay child support. After all, they probably already have a new female ‘mark’ that they are ‘working’ so that they can live off of her income and delusions.
1. Find a Support Network
It is fundamental to gain a support network. While with the NPD, this may have been stripped away, as the NPD will always socially isolate their victim from friends and family. So it may be a challenge to rebuild your network, as most of your former network left because they could not stand the NPD a**hole you were with. Those now close to you in network need to learn about and understand the nature of the NPD. To do that, you might consider educating them with material you can find on the internet, articles like this, or books that are available on the subject. Another excellent source of support is finding a survivor’s network, perhaps online, and there are several of these. This kind of support helps you to feel not so alone in your struggle.
2. Seek Counseling
Finding a qualified clinical counselor to help you sort through the intense emotions and finding the motivation to move in a positive direction is a wise action. Most victims of an NPD have damaged self-esteem and are grieving deeply. The damages of being a victim of an NPD are often complex and take time and work to heal. Effects can range from depression and anxiety to all-out Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.
3. Seek Legal Counsel
At some point, legal counsel will likely be needed. Do your research and find an attorney who is knowledgeable about Personality Disorders, and in particular NPD’s. This is a direct question you should ask them: ‘What is you experience in representing victims of Narcissistic Personality Disorder?” If they say they have much experience, then follow up with a question about the depth of their knowledge: “Tell me what you know about NPD?’ If it seems you know more than they do, consider another attorney to interview. Secondarily, if you have children involved in the situation, it may be a consideration to contact the local child protection agency and have a talk with someone there about your concerns for your kids, especially if the NPD has visitation rights. You don’t have to give every detail, and you do not have to be making an official abuse report to talk with someone at child protection services, you can just state any concerns you have about the NPD and put the NPD’s name onto the radar of child protection.
4. Seek Professional and Technical Help
Lastly, considering the addition of technical help at some point in your process, especially if the NPD is violating (or nearly violating, they know just how far 300 feet is on the PFA) court orders, may be inevitable. It may be advisable to have a security system installed in your home, along with video cameras that can record, to show how many times the NPD does a drive by of your home. Technical support may also include things like hiring a private investigator to secure evidences needed for court to prove that the NPD is violating court orders, or is not acting in accord with the spirit of the orders. For example, if the NPD has fought for child custody, but when the child is in their care routinely leaves the child with a non-related person of suspicious and unsavory character to go to the bar and drink, this might be hard evidence needed to end the NPD’s contact with the child. Or, if the NPD shows up intoxicated at your door to pick the child up, after refusing to hand the child over to the NPD, a call to the local police might be a good thing to do. Private investigators may also be useful in gaining evidences to show that the NPD in fact has more money (hidden, of course) than they claim they have to the support office.
You can recover and have a life if you have been or are now being victimized by an NPD. Harness your anger and put it to positive use, learn what you need to learn about your opponent so that you can anticipate their likely behaviors, and gain the evidences you need to secure legal sanctions against them so that they back off and leave you alone.
This content is accurate and true to the best of the author’s knowledge and is not meant to substitute for formal and individualized advice from a qualified professional.