How to Set Boundaries in a Relationship so You're Not a Doormat
When Did You Become Disempowered and Scared of Life?
Recently I recalled an incident that occurred decades ago and realized what an enormous impact it had on making me scared of life and unsure of myself. I was in first grade and my teacher, Sister Mary Virginia, called on me to read aloud. Feeling shy and unprepared, I refused.
Instead of simply choosing another student to read, Sister Mary Virginia became enraged. Her face turned blood-red as she grabbed me tightly by my upper arm and yanked me out of my miniature chair. She dragged me across the classroom, all the while commanding me to read the book she still held in her hand. She pulled my uniform sweater and Snoopy lunchbox from the lockers and dragged me to the door. Worst of all, she was threatening to send me to the principal's office where the secretary would call my mom to take me home.
Scared beyond belief, I whispered a few sentences from the book and she finally released her grip. She left deep impression marks on my skin and even deeper ones on my developing psyche. Her out-of-control fury created in me a lifelong fear of authority figures. I developed a penchant for not making waves, keeping my head down, pleasing others, and avoiding conflict at all cost. While the details of my story are unique, the experience of being disempowered and losing confidence because of it is all-too-familiar for many of us.
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From an adult perspective, I see that situation so clearly now: A cowardly, out-of-control teacher manhandled an innocent child who couldn't stand up for herself. If that happened to one of my sons today, I would be beyond livid and demand that the teacher be fired.
As a 6-year-old, though, I interpreted that event very differently than a grownup would. As kids are apt to do, I put all the blame on myself. I was convinced that I had been a bad girl and got exactly what I deserved for disobeying my teacher. I felt so much shame that I never told my parents about the ordeal. My mom and dad were devoted Catholics and, in my 6-year-old brain, I was sure they would side with Sister Mary Virginia and not me.
That incident was the beginning of my decades-long commitment to compliance at all cost. The expression, Go along to get along, pretty well summed up my existence until depression and anxiety overtook me a few years ago. One day my husband said, “I hope to live until I'm 100” while I thought to myself: I'd be relieved if I die today because I'm exhausted and there's no joy in my life.
I was tired of living in a world where I felt powerless, where people walked all over me, and where my self-worth got eroded. I needed to move on from that helpless 6-year-old girl who was dragged across the classroom and emerge a confident woman. As I began my journey to become a stronger person, stand up for myself, create healthy boundaries, and finally demand the respect I've earned, I looked for advice from three extremely successful women that I admire.
There's a place in you that you must keep inviolate. You must keep it pristine, clean so that nobody has the right to treat you badly...You need to have a place where you can say 'stop it!'— Dr. Maya Angelou
Dr. Maya Angelou
If only I had known Dr. Angelou when I was a kid, my life would have turned out so much better. I'd be a totally different person—stronger, happier, and more capable of protecting myself. But, thank goodness, I now have her words reverberating through my brain even though she's passed. When people invade my personal space, use profane language, or disrespect me, I think of her and calmly say: stop, back off, or not me, you don't! I keep my emotions in check and my voice under control so they know I mean business.
I remember what Dr. Angelou said: I'm a child of God and nobody has the right to treat me as though I'm anything less. I know Dr. Angelou's words would not have prevented me from getting violated by that nun; I was too little to protect myself from that assault. But, if I had known her wise words at that time, I never would have blamed myself and I never would have become a perpetual victim.
This brief clip is choke-full of good advice about setting boundaries and respecting yourself.
'No' is a complete sentence.— Shonda Rhimes
2. Shonda Rhimes
I've gotten a lot better at saying no by living in a male-dominated household and hearing the guys utter it without a trace of guilt or inner turmoil. Like so many women of my generation and of generations before me, I was brought up to be a people pleaser, always helping and sacrificing. My mother convinced me it was “the Christian thing to do” and it would bring a lot of happiness to my life. But, in truth, it often made me feel used, unappreciated, and foolish.
When I was a stay-at-home mom with two young boys (one with autism), I wanted to make connections with other women. I invited kids to our home for play dates, hoping to build friendships for both me and my sons. Soon moms were asking me to watch their children (for free) so they could go to medical appointments, get their hair done, and attend meetings. Thinking I didn't have a valid reason to say no and feeling rather unimportant as a stay-at-home mom, I let this happen again and again. It quickly became apparent that these women had no interest in getting to know me better. They just wanted to dump their kids and make a hasty retreat.
Shonda Rhimes, the highly successful television producer and writer, says women like me need to have this simple response at their disposal, “No. I'm sorry. I'm not able to do that.” We don't need to have a laundry list of excuses or even one excuse. We can say no without feeling a twinge of guilt because we're doing what's best for ourselves and showing others our true worth. Others won't value us if we're doormats; they'll just walk on us.
This powerful clip shows us the value of setting boundaries so we can help others but not diminish ourselves.
How you treat yourself is how you treat God...You are the representative of God in your life...It's not selfish to put yourself first. It's self-full.— Iyanla Vanzant
3. Iyanla Vanzant
My parents were religious people who followed the doctrine of their Catholic faith without asking questions. When I was a child, I saw their lives as joyless as they rarely laughed, joked, and embraced the craziness of life with four kids. While attending Catholic schools for 12 years, I saw priests who were heavy drinkers and smokers and nuns who were over-worked and over-stressed.
From an early age, I saw religion as something that made life less fun and more burdensome. I thought the world was tough enough so I didn't understand why anyone would want to weigh themselves down with even more hardship. I was told to put others first—to sacrifice and to act unselfishly.
As an adult, I taught kindergarten at an inner-city Catholic school until I became depleted and disillusioned. I was running on empty with nothing left to give—tired and burned out and only in my thirties! That's when I started to open up and listen to what other people had to say about religion and how they found it joyful and enriching—just the opposite of how I'd experienced it.
Author and motivational speaker, Iyanla Vanzant, gave me a perspective that changed my life. She believes we're honoring God when we put ourselves before others. We represent Him here on earth and, when we care for ourselves, we show love and respect for Him.
This is something I never heard as a child—not even close—but it made total sense to me. It gave me the strength to finally make myself a priority by exercising, eating right, writing in a journal, meditating, spending time in nature, gardening, reading, and having fantastic sex with my husband. Joy returned to my life. I had the time, patience, and energy to respond to my family and friends with enthusiasm and support, and I was no longer dragging through each day just to get to the end.
This eye-opening clip changed how I think about God and religion and radically altered how I live my life.
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